While enjoying a very successful business
While enjoying a very successful business life in motor vehicle refurbishment owner/sales and other business interests, I was always thinking there's something more to this life there's something I am meant to be doing besides having interests in the automobile industry. What is it I kept asking myself? Speaking to myself I was thinking you cannot use your voice because you suffer from a very bad speech impediment (stammering) so how can you use your voice. That seemed to rule that avenue out. You see that at the age of five in this life I suffered what you may call a parent break up and subsequently (parents divorcing). This emotional time within myself resulted in a huge speech impediment, not being able to speak my truth at that time. I seem to have carried the energy of not speaking up for myself through the different stages of my life until the age of 32. At this particular time I was suffering from what you may call a failed relationship (a broken heart) I was devastated from the loss of a partner.
It was at this heartbreaking time my soul spoke to me.
It was at this heartbreaking time my soul spoke to me in words that I still remember this very day (You Are Worth More Than This). You have a voice use it (My Soul Continued To Speak) use this speech impediment as a vehicle for improving yourself, right here right now in this life. This was amazing I instantly realised that there was awakening within myself, and this awakening would take me into the spiritual aspect of myself. I soon realised that there are many layers to me (and to everybody else) and every layer has to be stripped away so we can find the true power of ourselves. Once we find that true power we can see that we have treated ourselves as a second-class citizen. Self belief was a hard pill to swallow at that time, when everything was being stripped away from me, relationships, businesses, even my health.
I decided to go within, to communicate with this power that was raging within me, that wanted my mind to hear the voice of the soul speaking to me. I decided to go to local spiritual church and listen to the philosophy of the speakers at that time. It was at this time that I received a spiritual message. The message was something like this. You are starting to listen to your soul, your life now will take a different direction, you are starting to believe in yourself, now is the time to stand up and believe in yourself. I was thinking to myself, how can I stand up for myself. Everything I touch is falling away, I cannot even speak properly. I'm a laughingstock.
The inner voice spoke straightaway
It said, only you can do it Dennis, only you can jump the gap from non-belief to self -belief, the choice is yours. You have hidden wisdom, hidden belief patterns, all you have to do is find the trigger to catapult these beliefs these patterns into your physical acceptance of yourself. You know the way forward. So start trusting yourself. I am your soul, this is your soul speaking, please do not turn away from me, however, embrace me for I am your way forward.What can you do when you cannot speak? Your options are limited saying to myself. Then I took it upon myself to unleash the power that is within me. To stand up, never sit down in the face of defeat. However sometimes I was defeated, so I used that defeat to inspire me to go onward and forward to overcome this temporary feeling.
I developed within myself a courageous pattern of standing up and speaking and never sitting down until I had delivered my newfound philosophy and my homegrown ideas in the way of living and being in this life. It was while I was sitting in meditation at the local spiritual church that my inner vision opened up to me. I was starting to realise that I am more than I thought I was, I am perfect and powerful in all areas of my life, and I've just got to start believing that.